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well this week was so sad... with the decease of my grandfather, my father was largely absent in the house ... he stayed at my grandmother's house to fix some papers of my grandfather, the few times that he stayed at home... he sometimes was on silent, or locked in his room crying~

 this is so hard... when we were accepting this big loss we had another 2... and these are really sad for me because at the funeral of my grandfather i wanted to be strong and not mourn, I did it, but with this recent losses i could no more keep my feelings ... and depression took me too~

im going to miss you a lot grandpa R.I.P he never liked how i dressed but i remember the times when i was 5/12 years old and i always were playing with you...

 you where with me 4 years Hideki gosh im going to miss you a lot too... everything remanids me my Hideki you were the best cat I ever had... the best of the world... i want you back my baby ...

and P-chan 

you were with me only a week, but that was enough to love a lot...